Taking Stock on the Cusp


Popping by this blog for my semi-random appearance of the moment. I’m reflecting tonight on several things: it has been almost two months since I moved to a monastery to intern, and it is also my birthday weekend. Both of these things bring to mind the amount of change that has occurred in my life in the past 12 months.

There’s been the really difficult things–senior year, family, moving (again, and again, and again). There’s been really wonderful things…not really things, mostly people. People who open and have opened hearts and homes and lives to me. The joys of graduation and finishing four years of hard work. The joy of new experiences and new places and new adventures.

So without further ado, I have written out a “taking stock” post. To say these things that I am doing, feeling, thinking, and to record them for myself in a year, five years, ten years when I want to revisit my thoughts as a young adult.

Taking Stock

making art of all sorts. Oddly, my creative streak has emerged in an intense way over the past few weeks. Let’s just say that I’ve made several trips to Michaels, which is several too many for my budget.

drinking tea. Luckily, there is a fantastic tea shop just a few blocks from where I currently live, which is very wonderful and dangerous.

wanting fall to last longer, to feel the lingering, warm sun for just a little longer, to freeze the red orange gold leaves in place for just a few weeks more.

watching Poe Party, obviously. I’m also meaning to catch up on Elementary, but that hasn’t happened yet, as my TV-watching time has mostly involved watching Pride and Prejudice on Amazon Prime. Just because.

reading Mary Oliver’s House of Light. A random mystery called Thoreau at Devil’s Perch (which I’m having trouble finishing because of the odd plot/narration, but am trying to stick it out for the sake of trying something new). I tried to not buy any more books, but that has only worked for about a week. I broke that mandate tonight at Harvard Book Store, as per usual (but e.e. cummings! Anne Fadiman! Laurie R. King!). Obviously I just need to read faster.

listening to (and singing) mostly hymns and plainsong these days. But I do jam out to Florence + the Machine or Broadway albums as needed.

eating well. This weekend is a bit abnormal, as it is my birthday, and I am allowing myself more sugar than I should.

wishing that the sky stayed the color of sunsets on some days.

enjoying the weekend (or Sabbath, as it is known around here). Relaxation is so important for the body, mind, and soul.

hoping for more adventures in Cambridge tomorrow. Also hoping I will be able to finish that darn Thoreau mystery so I can move on to something more interesting.

needing nothing, right now. Contentment is priceless, when it lingers.

following the election, obviously.

feeling quiet elation, excitement (because birthdays are exciting, even when you’re an adult), present in this moment.

wearing boots and sweaters, because New England falls are the absolute best.

bookmarking this piece about Thoreau and ambition (causing me to buy a copy of Walden), and this article about the popularity of cathedrals vs regular parishes (fascinating).

loving the moments of humanity and kindness I see in the world. There’s so much evil and so many pressures that we face in our day-to-day lives–we need more kindness from both ourselves and others.

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